Today felt like it would never end. My bf and I finally drank together. It was embarrassing but we finally got on another level. We finally stepped us and I’m glad that he wasn’t afraid. Having an alcoholic as a parent is very harsh on the heart when you try to convince yourself it’s okay to drink. I’m quite happy about that, but at the same time I think I let a friend down as well. When I told him about it he almost seemed disappointed. I know he didn’t mean it but coming from him it kinda hurts. He’s like my little brother and I don’t want to let him down. Oh complicated life. Fun fun.

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